CD 28 -10 DPO

Af is definitely on her way according to my chart and cramps. :( So defeated.  If I didn't want a child so bad I'd be done. :(

Hurt..

Jay added Kaycee to FB tonight. While I know he says he doesn't care about her, I don't understand why he needs to even acknowledge her. I swear if I have done all this for him and he does something stupid... I dont know what would happen. Ughh I wish I had someone to vent to.

CD22-4DPO

So FF changed my O-day to the 18th. Not sure how I feel about that. So I was planning to test the 3rd and there would be no point now since my AF will be 2 days later. Ughh.  IDK. Chart and PM attached.

Reading from Cheri22

"They are showing me a girl and they relate her to NOVEMBER so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in

They are they showing me a girl who is always going to want to do things according to plan. Shes always going to be highly organized and often knowing what is going to be happening and how things need to be taken care of. I am seeing her as someone who is always going to be good about getting others involved and then getting things completed on time. Its one of her biggest pet peeves is when things are not working out. You will find her to always have this really big clip board that she has with all of the information about what shes doing, what needs to happen and how things should be taken care of. Making her own little check list and trying to ensure that everything is going according to plan.

They are showing her having a little younger brother and shes often telling him what to do too.. For the most part, he humors her, is always going to try and do it the way she wants, but after shes no longer paying attention hes quick to do it his way and how he would like it to look.

Shes always going to have her hair just past her shoulders, but I am seeing her more times than not, putting it up into a pony tail and away from her face. Shes about making sure that its efficient more than anything and not so time consuming.

When to comes to marriage i am seeing her closer to 23. They will have two boys of their own.

When to comes to career paths, they are showing her linked to working in real estate"

CD19-3DPO

Decided to put my effed up temp in from CD17 because my chart looked stupid without it. So officially 3DPO and that should be reflected tomorrow.  Today is the day I'm suppose to get my reading from Cheri22. I hope I get it before bed so I won't be up all night wondering. Reread my reading from Amber and saw she said mid-May delivery.  If it by some miracle happens this cycle my EDD is May 14th. Maybe a little hope left. We will see.  Chart attached.

Cd17

Positive OPK'S continue. Jay was in a bad mood because his football team lost last night so he wasnt interested in BD'ING sadly :-( hopefully the bd'ing 3 days before helps *sigh* Major cramps on my right side right now. Probably ovulation.  Discarded my temp this morning. Stupidly got up and peed then took it. Oh well. Opks(7am and 6:00pm) and chart below.

CD16

Positive OPK this evening :) Ovulation happening soon ! Hoping beyond hope like usual that this month will be it. Still planning to do a progesterone test in a week. Hopefully I'll be able to and that will at least verify I am in fact ovulating. Here's the OPK and my chart thus far.

CD11

Here is today's chart and my OPK from 11:30. Woke up 30 mins later so temp was off.
I keep having dreams about people telling me I'm not going to get pregnant.  Hopefully its just my subconscious and it turns out to be the opposite soon.
Jay and I have been on the outs for a while. As much as I want to get pregnant I'm not sure if I should. I don't know where our relationship is going at this point.

CD9

Today's OPK is SO much lighter than the one about 24 hours ago. I think it might just be because I drank a lot of water today and peed a LOT. Oh well. Here are todays chart and OPK from about 6:45PM

CD8

No real update. Just going with the flow. Here are todays OPKS.

 8AM

7PM

CD7 (10th cycle)

Having a really weird cycle thus far. 4 days of AF and 3 days of spotting.  Temping vaginally this cycle. Already have a line on my OPK.
Chart and OPK pic attached. 

Well it's CD4 again... *sigh*

I haven't had the heart to update. I'm pretty devastated. Especially considering I decided to give in and get a conception reading and even paid instead of waiting for a free one. This was my reading:
Hello Ashley,

 I started looking at the cards and they were all pointing to you finding out you're pregnant within the next 2 weeks... When was your last AF? I also feel that you will be having a girl.  Delivery method will be vaginal delivery that lasts 13 hours. I do not see any problems with your pregnancy OR delivery. I feel you will be delivering mid May and it will be a VERY rainy day! Your daughter will be healthy and require no medical assistance after birth. You will have some heavy bleeding from what I am feeling but they will be able to get that under control within a few minutes. Just take it easy and remember to take your folic acid! 

Please let me know if you need/want clarification on anything. 

Thank you!

-Amber

AF showed later that day.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm depressed and feel like I don't know if I can do this anymore. 

CD24-8DPO

Woke up to orange stained sticky CM this morning. Don't know what to think about it so I just put spotting. I'm pretty sure I'm out this month. My temps look terrible. Only time will tell. Pic of CM, chart and PM attached.

CD21-5DPO

Been slacking on the updates. Work has been so busy and exhausting. Just about half way through the 2WW and I haven't even noticed. Wow. Chart and PM posted below. Fx for this cycle :-)

FYI:

Just noticed my test date is A's birthday. Maybe he will be my good luck charm to bring a cousin into the world for him ♥

CD17-1DPO

CD16-Ovulation Day

I'm about 90% sure I'm ovulating today. I got slight temp drop and negative OPK this morning.
Yesterday's opk and todays opk attached for comparison.

CD11-15

CD10

OPK is getting darker :-) hopefully I O on time this cycle. Chart and OPK from 3:00pm attached.

CD9

Didn't have anything to update about yesterday so I forgot to lol. Not much going on tonight either. Temps are being extremely weird. We will see what comes of it. Chart attached.

CD7

Extremely odd high temps lately. Especially today. Its weird but maybe it's the change of atmosphere since I have tempted since being gone from FL. Until time will tell I suppose. Chart attached.

CD6

Ive been so stressed lately at work. I just wanna cry and walk away. I would if I didn't want a baby so badly. *sigh*
Here's today's chart.

CD5

No real update today. Forgot to temp so just chart attachee below.

CD4

It's Monday. I've been super duper depressed and stressed lately I just completely skipped work. I feel bad about it cause I know I should be there.
But I just couldn't bring myself to go.
Attached is todays chart. Can't wait to be fertile and BD !! :) Also going to start EPO today. 

Shettles Method

I read on FB about this method of BD'ing to have a girl or a boy. I'd be happy with either so I'm not going to chose but thought it was interesting enough to post to remind myself. Here's what she said:

Basically they say if you want a boy you  BD the day before, day of and day after ovulation. If you want a girl you should BD 2-3 days before Ovulation. The reason behind this is that the female sperm last longer than the male sperm and are slower swimmers. The males swim faster but don't live as long as the females.

Decided not to do the SMEP method this cycle.  Just going to BD every other day starting CD 8 till a day or so after negative OPK.

Levels during Pregnancy

So for the day I actually do see that + test that sticks,  here is the count chart I should refer to. I found it on FB a girl in the TTC group posted it.

CD3

Wishing already that my cycle days would go quicker but that would mean I would skip my Sunday. No bueno.
Only got 3 hours of sleep last night. I'm stressed out and my body is feeling the effects. *sigh* I wish all of this was easier.
Anyway, chart is attached. Not of only 3 hours of sleep.

Fertility Tests

So I asked a bunch of questions on different forums and FB in regards to FT they recommend. I was given this list (added prices I've found this far):
★FSH(CD3)- $40 (Walk In Lab)
★Progesterone(7 days after O)- $47(Walk in Lab)
★TVU(after O)- Approx. $300
★HSG (2-5 days after AF) No cost reference yet

As much as I'd love to get a FSH test today(technically CD3 now) or even Monday Jay would never approve me "wasting money" on it. It's the first and most important step the girls have said. So I'm kind of sad I won't be able to get it this cycle.
I'll definitely take WIL up on the $47 Progesterone test after O though just to have confirmation I did indeed O (along with temp and OPK proof).
I wish I could afford an HSG and TVU right now. Not even sure I can get them done without doctors orders.  They will require additional research.

Jay also has to do a semen analysis. If I can convince him to do it, that will be hella hard.

Overall,  I'm excited to at least get 1 test done this cycle to prove a very important thing.

Update:

• Decided to do FSH & LH together. $59 @ WIL
• HSG- Have gotten quotes from 2 places. $300 @ MemorialCare & $395 @ Reproductive Partners medical group. Waiting to get a quote from HRC Fertility.
• Semen Analysis-$129 @ Accesa (if I can convince Jay to go :-/)
• Also was advised to get a Rubella test done- $33 @ WIL

So as of now I can only get the Progesterone done. Sad that I can't afford the HSG procedure yet. I think it would help if there is in fact blockage somewhere. But I guess I'll settle for ensuring that I do ovulate.

CD2-Part2

I think I've decided to attempt the SMEP this cycle for our BD schedule.
I'm taking my prenatals, folic acid, will take EPO and baby aspirin later this cycle. I'll also remember to use conceive plus while BD'ing. If this cycle doesn't work I will be taking every test available to find out what is wrong next month. Feeling that 'ready for my turn' feeling. FX.

http://spermmeetseggplan.com/smep-step-by-step/

Here is your to-do list for the Sperm Meets Egg Plan (SMEP). You should decide to try SMEP within the first week of a new cycle. To get started, you may want to buy a nice calendar or print a calendar page from the internet. The first week of your cycle you will relax and get prepared. After that, it’s go time!

Cycle days 1-7

CD1 is your first day of full flow
Stock up on Ovulation Predictor Kits (OPKs)
Stock up on Pregnancy Tests
Mark start dates on your calendar:
CD8 = BD (“Baby Dance”/have intercourse/”try”) every other day until you receive a positive OPK (+OPK)

CD10 daily OPK tests

Cycle day 8
BD, and plan to BD every other day until +OPK

Cycle day 10
Start daily OPK testing until OPK turns positive

+OPK day
BD today, tomorrow, and the next day.
Skip a day and BD one more time.

Mark test day on your calendar: +OPK day + 15 = test day

If OPK never turns positive, BD every other day until your period (AF or “Aunt Flo/Flow”) arrives or until CD35
Test day (or CD35)

If AF has not arrived, take a home pregnancy test

First morning urine (FMU) does not always yield the best results, you may wish to try with your second morning urine (SMU) or an afternoon test after a 3-4 hour hold (no liquids)

Got a BFP (big fat positive)?

CD 2

So I intend on temping at 6:00AM every week day because that's when I get up for work. Adjusted this mornings 7:30AM temp on whenmybaby.com to reflect what it *would* have been at 6AM(which is what the note is reflecting in the chart).
Glad today is Saturday because it's going to be a pretty heavy flow day(based on past cycles). Having major cramps, thank god for midol. Just hoping my AF doesn't last long.
Chart attached.

CD 1 (9th cycle)

So the positive pregnancy test wasn't true as expected and AF showed up in full force in the after noon. On to a new cycle. Going to start temping again so I can show it to the doctor after I get insurance if this cycle fails as well.

CD29-12DPO

So... a slight positive test at 4:00PM. Not sure if I believe it. Backache, nausa, and headache on and off today. I don't know what to think. Might POAS tomorrow morning but I don't want to ruin my day if it's negative.
Test, chart, PM, and CM info on toilet paper & fingers attached.

CD28-11DPO

Throughout most of the day I haven't felt anything. This evening I've been extremely hungry and nauseous at the same time. It's too late to take a PM screen shot because FF already reflects tomorrow.  So just chart is attached. FX still :-)

CD27-10DPO

I don't really have an update today. I'm not feeling anything and I'm depressed in regards to last nights update. Chart and PM attached anyway.

CD26-9DPO

No real update today. Not bloated or anything today. Had a backache and headache and gassy but those could be from anything. Tested this morning.  BFN of course. Pics attached.

UPDATE: 9:30PM

I dont know why I decided to do this I like disappointmen I guess. But I took another test and decided to torture myself more and see if there is any HCG at all in my system and took an OPK as well. Well there is virtually no HCG at all in my system. Just need to take this cycle as an L. Pics below.